Mom needs a lot of help. Sometimes it takes two to lift her out of her chair. The walker is in front of her and she clings to it for dear life, while taking a few feeble steps. One of us quickly pulls the wheelchair up behind her and we tell her to sit down. She's not sure...is there really a place to sit? What's in front of her is more real/tangible, and she has a "death grip" on it! It is hard, really hard to sit while hanging on to the walker, but when she does, she's in for a smooth and easy ride!
Sometimes I fear I'm too much like Mom. I want to hang on to what I can see and it's hard to sit down and rest. If only I could see the bigger picture.
I felt God nudging me the other day and telling me it's time to sit down and rest. Let Him hold me. Let go of all the tension, anxiety and strain of the days, weeks, months and years. And this song came to me:
Just Be Held
Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on
And when you're tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There's freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go
So when you're on your knees and answers seem so far away
You're not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your world's not falling apart, it's falling into place
I'm on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held
If your eyes are on the storm
You'll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross
You'll know I always have and I always will
And not a tear is wasted
In time, you'll understand
I'm painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in My hands
So when…
(You can listen to it here.)
Sometimes He walks with us, sometimes He weeps with us. When the way is hard and the waiting long sometimes I just want to be held...and He is there...
