The other day a friend asked me how I'm doing. I was a bit surprised by my reply and have been pondering it ever since. This is what I said: "You know, life doesn't always turn out like you expect, but I'm learning to trust the Father's heart for me even in the things I don't understand." Learning is a key word here. I haven't, by any means, arrived.
A big question I've had recently is concerning the goodness of God. Sure, that's what everyone says and that's what the Bible says so just believe it and get on with life. Never-mind about the dreams that haven't come true, the sickness that still isn't healed, the loved ones that have died, the relationships that are rocky, the broken heart, the loneliness and pain, regrets from the past...the list could go on and on. You fill in the blanks.
This morning I was listening to Steffany Getzinger on Process, Revelation and Growth. God is with me in the process. He is not put off by my process. He loves me even when I don't believe that He's good. Not that I don't want to believe but sometimes I simply don't.
And I often pray for God to show me His goodness in the everyday things of life. And He does. The things He knows really matter to me, the things that my little heart needs. Being seen and valued, words of affirmation, being taught, feeling wanted, connection. Comfort, being with, compassion. As I give those things to myself I see them coming all around from others and I know it's God using people to show me His love and goodness.
This song says it all: How Far
- Still in Process
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