Through Your Darkest Night

The words of the song, "I Will Carry You" by Ellie Holcomb, keep playing in my mind. You can listen to the full version here, but these are a few phrases that stood out to me:

"I know you're tired, I see it in your eyes

All that anxiety that rules your mind

I'll be your shield when you don't feel like

You've got strength enough to fight

I'll stand by your side...

Through your darkest night

When you're terrified...

When you're hope runs dry

I will carry you...

You are not the sum of your mistakes

You don't have to hide the parts of you that ache

I choose you as you are a million times

'Cause I am not ashamed of you

I won't walk away from you."

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I've been there. Tired from all the anxiety that rules my mind. Feeling like I don't have strength enough to fight. Terrified in the darkest night, when all my hope ran dry. 

Then he comes and says to me: You are not the sum of your mistakes, you don't have to hide the parts of you that ache, I choose you as you are a million times, cause I am not ashamed of you, I won't walk away from you. 

This is Jesus, but he uses people. For many years I felt confused. I was told that God is everything, that he should be enough. And he is, but his love is to be experienced, and the way we experience it is through other people. The people are there, I promise you. Sometimes the pain is so deep we can't see them, but they are there. 

The more healing I experience, the more I see the love of Jesus in the people around me. As I dare to open my heart a crack and let the light shine in, I am amazed at the transformation of love.

Thank you to those who have stood by my side when I had no strength to fight, who helped me thru my darkest night - when I was terrified, who chose me as I am again and again, who never walked away...

Whatever your dark night, there is love for you...