Honesty

Honestly, I thought I was a pretty honest person until this last week...

The days were long and weary and I began thinking of how nice it would be to have a few less hours. I never asked for 45 hours/week but that's what came with the job. As my energy level diminished and it was harder and harder to make it through the week, the thought of less hours was becoming more and more appealing.

But I was afraid to ask. So I thought to myself, Winter is a slower time of year. There really isn't that much work. If I take off, it will save them some money. Now, doesn't that sound quite noble?

So one day I worked up my courage and approached my manager with the request to take Wednesday afternoons off through the winter months, carefully explaining that there really isn't that much work. He was willing to consider it but wanted time to talk it over with management. I waited to see what would happen, all the while many thoughts tumbling about in my head.

As the days went by my strength did not increase and the waiting seemed long. One day I came to the realization that the real reason I wanted less hours was because of my health, not the noble-sounding reason I had given. Not long after, found me once again talking to my manager. My noble-sounding reason soon flew out the window when I realized a full-time secretary was of more importance to them than saving money. However, they kindly granted my request after which I did disclose the real reason for it. I was surprised to receive sympathy and understanding.

Honesty starts with myself and being able to identify how I'm feeling. Then it is courage to be vulnerable and tell the truth to others, even if I think they won't understand. And maybe there is even a lie you're believing like this one: Men will like me better if I can save them money. What a relief to get rid of that one!

To be honest, honesty feels good to everyone involved!