You Will Always Be

Fear has played a pretty big part in my life. I've known that for a long time, but it has felt so big and overwhelming I didn't even know how to confront it. This is something that God has been patiently working on with me. He told me, some months back, to let go of the fear and open my heart to receive love. This is something we've had many conversations about. 

One of my fears, that is very deep, and goes way back, is the fear that I won't be taken care of. A situation came up this week that pressed hard on that deep pain in my heart. I KNEW, in my head, that I would be taken care of, but I just couldn't seem to get it to my heart. 

One night I came home and sat and wept and wept and just sat with that little girl that didn't think she'd be taken care of. There was this song I had on repeat that I listened to until I felt it deep inside, that it was true. This says it better than I can. You can listen to it here: Fall on Me by NeedtoBreathe. 

Here is a snatch of it:

You were there to pick me up

And tell me I was good enough

It doesn't matter what I've done

You pull me closer

The highs and lows and in-betweens

You're the one that's there for me

When I hurt and when I bleed

You make it better

You make it better. 

You will always be

You will always be

The one that I can call

The safest place to fall

For me

When I can't stand

When I can't stand.

The next day I got hit again and had to cry some more, and I put this song on repeat again. I may still feel that fear, but I know I've found a deeper place of knowing - that I will be taken care of.