Until It's Good

 I love these lines from "Fear Is Not My Future" by Brandon Lake:

Let him turn it in your favor, 

Watch him work it for your good,

He's not done with what he started,

He's not done until it's good...

I was thinking back over my life this morning, the ways in which God has interwoven his love throughout my story. Every step along the way he has used to bring me to the place I am now. I began thanking him for the beauty in my story. Love comes in many and varied ways.

It may come in the form of a bright-eyed 6-year-old whose happy little voice fills the office. The days she gets to come to work with daddy are her delight, where she doesn't have to vie for his attention with other siblings. She says, "Good Morning, Pauline"! and runs to give me a hug. She chatters to me as I work. We eat lunch together. The shredder gets more use than average. She loves helping me with a small project. She shows me her art kit and what she is learning in her gymnastics class. It does my heart good, but I'm taken off guard by the sadness I feel. The loss of never having a little girl of my own. Through the tears, I let the healing come, so I can fully embrace the goodness of today. 

He will keep working with me as long as it takes, for me to understand his love. I know Love will never leave. And in the places that don't feel good, it only means he's not done yet.